They say a picture says a thousand words, well I guess mine speaks millions. The collage of intricate pictures hanging upon my wall are much more than just images. They are a collection of memories, with happiness and laughter just craving to come alive. Each, leaving a story behind that has been encrypted in my past forever. I have shaped it to represent each part of my life, the day I was born, birthdays, parties, graduation and everything in between. It has been in my bedroom for quite some time now, just reminding me of myself. It’s not so simple to understand, but it’s been keeping me together. These memories have become symbols of who I am, and that I am not to change. It gives off a vintage vibe, just the way I like it, representing my past beautifully in the corners of my wall. People may see it as an accessory to fill up the empty spaces in my wall, but for me, it’s my reminder.
My father once told me to never forget the past, to look upon it as a lesson and learn from it. Though many of these pictures seem content, many hide an underlying sadness. I have pictures of friends who are no longer friends, relationships that came to an end, people who have drifted and memories I wish to forget, but I still hang it on my wall and look upon it every day. It is not there to bring me down, but rather to uplift my soul and cherish the good memories that were there. Sometimes I do wish that things hadn’t changed, but everyone has their own reality to face.
All those fights and all those arguments and every moment that I felt like giving up seem to pay off when I see myself today. We all blame ourselves for the rough times but never seem to understand that happiness it will bring in the future. It’s this sort of irony that makes up the core of life. Just as we crave to be happy we must crave the pain to keep our serenities balanced. Whenever I look upon my bedroom wall I see me, the “me” that has changed so many times, from being shy to spontaneous and bold to shattered. Regardless of what life has brought I thank it for shaping me to who I am today. It’s now that I realize, all the content and saddened times were necessary, and that is what keeps me overlooking these pictures each and every day of my life.